I don’t know if you’ll read this but if you do then I just want you to know that none of that was me being spiteful or intentionally hurtful. I just needed to know if you’d let me push you away, I needed to know if you’d budge over to the sidelines or at least stay somewhere on the field and well, I got my answer. I don’t blame you in the slightest, like i said it’s probably for the best and I’m sure you’ll be glad of it if anything bad happens down the line. Perhaps you won’t or perhaps none of it will make a single bit of difference to you regardless, I don’t know.
Thank you for your patience and the times you were there. There were things that I couldn’t have gotten through without your words or presence and even in the face of things to inevitably come I’m more than grateful and appreciative. I didn’t deserve a single moment of it.
Find happiness, don’t you dare stop chasing it down out of insecurity or lack of will because you’re more than capable and I swear to you there’s no bias in those words now.
Also, try your hardest not to think bad of me based on my string of ridiculous mistakes and poor judgement, there’s not much more to me than a naive fool and you know it all too well.
One of the only comforts I have right now is knowing that you would never be as weak as me and that you won’t ever let anything happen to him so long as you’re drawing breath. For the love of god, keep up that strength and do nothing other than continue to build upon on it.
Finish it. I’m with you until the end of the line.